What if..

What if just for today.

Second lasted for an eternity.

If every second, lingered on your tongue.

If this second right now

This very one you have right here

That one that's already gone

before you even noticed where it went

The one before you forgot,

you were meant to be thinking about this second..

think about this second

before it disapears

before it moulds into the 59th second

of a 60 second minute

of the 61st second

of the 3600th of the hour

of the 3601st second

of the 86400th

of the next 24 hours

of the 2,419,201st second

of the next 7 days

of the 2,419,201st second

of the next 30 days

ok, you get the picture

I could go on.

In fact, say we live an average of 80 years

That's 2 billion, 322 million, 432 thousand, 960 seconds in a lifetime.

All joined by this very moment

That's already slipped away

melting into the past

and you didn't even notice

because you're too busy concentrating

on that other second

the one we started with

before you forgot you were even thinking about seconds

~and your stomach distracted your attention

because you haven't eaten yet...~

and so what if this second now

could be adored like the first time your lips met your lover

a hot. spicy lover

not the friend you kissed to see what it would feel like,

and realised they're more like a sibling

but a lover that their tongue

is so encased in yours hands fumbling

legs entangled

breath quickening

short, sharp exhales

long, heart filled moans

the type of second that makes you forget everything else exists

what if every second felt like this?

~we probably wouldn't get very much done~

but what if every one of those

2 billion, 322 million 432 thousand, 960 seconds in a lifetime

were made up of seconds in love?

when I think about all of the seconds I spent worrying, doubting, quiestioning

all of the seconds I felt unworthy

not good enough

crumbling under the pressure of this person I've created

this life I've built

scared that any second now

it could disappear from under my toes

the seconds I fear they'll find out I'm a fraud

living a lie

letting my good old friend imposter syndrome

sit nagging on my shoulder

no thank you

I'm here for sweet nothings

whispered in my ear

for the embrace of love

to wrap me up

and remind me that

this second is the most important second I have ever had

have ever had

and will ever have

those words on the tip of your tongue?

that conversation you have with yourself when no one else is listening?

the actions you take when no-one else is watching?

it's in those seconds

the ones we think are so irrelevent

because there's a much more important second next week

when I have a presentation to give

or that second last month

when I should have said

what I really felt

no

those seconds are gone

they don't exist yet

the second you have right here

snuggled between this second and that other second

this is the only one that counts

so I step back

shake myself off

make the ugliness and the beauty of this second my priority

and remember

time and time again

that all we have is the now

the cherry between my lips

biting the flesh around the stone

wrapping my tongue around those words

that have suddenly melted into the past

but linger for a second longer

imprinted on your experience

your unique adventure

of those 2 billion, 322 million 432 thousand, 960 seconds

that make up your lifetime.